until then…

This blog is called “Until Then” because this is gonna have to do “Until Then”. “Until Then” for me is my own podcast. I’ve wanted to do a podcast for a while now but I just haven’t gotten around to it yet because of da rona that’s been going around (it’s probably messed up some of your plans too i’m sure). “Until Then”, I wanted a way where I could get my thoughts and ideas out instead of sitting inside my head. In the wake of the recent events going on in the country surrounding the murder of George Floyd, I became really inspired to just go ahead and do the things I really want to do in life. Why wait? I sit around and see other people doing what I want to do and ask myself “Why not me?”. I think a lot of times we forget how capable we are in life. I’ve never told anyone this in person, but I think of myself as a creative. Part of the reason we’re on this earth is to create. I think we’re all creatives. It’s just a matter of figuring out what you want to do and what you like. Going back to the George Floyd situation, I watched the video of that man get killed and realized I can’t sit around anymore without doing what I really want to do. Unfortunately, I have to think about if that will happen to me. What will I have done with my life up until that point? Will I have done what I wanted to do? As sad as it is, I want to be able to say I did as much as I could. Everything that’s going on in our country right now has made me excited for the future. That’s why I started this blog. To me, this is my first step towards everything I want out of life. This is the first step towards all of my goals.

I think we all have something that we do “Until Then”. Maybe you want to start a clothing brand someday, or be a professional athlete, or be a mayor. Until then you do what you can to get to that end goal. It’s not a bad thing either to not be there yet. It’s great if you are! But I think it’s important to realize that no matter how bad you want that “thing”, you can’t just have it right now. You have to work towards it if you really want it. I know I probably sound like a broken record saying that, but it is so true. In our generation we want everything right now. We want to be famous right now. We want a lot of money right now. We want people to think highly of us right now. But when you turn around and look at the people who are doing all of those things, they stayed down and worked for what they have today. Stay down now and work your ass off for whatever it is you want. I’ve been saying this to myself a lot recently, but doing what you want to do in life is as easy as just telling yourself “I’m going to start doing this today”. It’s as easy as just starting. Merrium-Webster defines the word start as “a place of beginning”. That’s it. Of course this is easier said than done. It’s easy to wake up and tell yourself “I’m going to start reading that book today”. Then you go through your day feeling good about yourself because you told yourself you were going to start the book, but then you look up and you’re already going to bed. You didn’t read the book. It’s easy to fall into that self-gratifying state of mind. If you fall into that trap, you’ll look up 5 or 10 years from now and realize you never did what you said you would start.

I read this quote from Nipsey Hussle the other day. He said “I remember feeling like, No. 1, what’s the point and, No. 2, maybe I'm tripping. Maybe I’m not even supposed to be thinking this big and thinking outside the box; maybe I should just follow suit. That’s a dangerous thing”. And what he said is so important. It’s dangerous to follow suit and do, or not do, what everyone else is doing. A lot of times you’ll find that it’s keeping you from doing what you really want to do, but instead you try to appease what society thinks.

I think that’s it for now. I don’t think I’ll ever know how much I’m going to write in these. If you’ve actually read this far, thank you. I’m really not doing this to get a lot of readers or people following what I post. This is for me, and maybe people will like it along the way. There’s so much I want to do, but “Until Then”…